New Year Plans!

I have wanted to sit down and blog for WEEKS!
Why haven't I?
150 reasons that would no doubt make you chuckle.

I have wanted to blog like 8 different ideas, 7 of which my sweet, amazing hubby says " Babe, you can't post that" ... and I willingly (sometimes not so willingly) trust that he is probably right.

So here it is...
Christmas is over. I have started my shopping list for next year because I am "that person".
The decorations are put away and the apartment is all clean and tidy and smells like vanilla.                (you don't care how my apartment smells but it matters to me)

I LOVE JANUARY! I think its because of the fresh start that the New Year brings.
All the attempts at bettering myself that I have failed at now seem silly and here I am aiming for new thoughts and new ways to become a better person.

I LOVE NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!! I think they are exciting and a new adventure! Now my personality is called expressive and that means I am all in for the ride and journey. I could care less if I fail.

Over the last few years I have really been focused on a healthier life style. No more fad diets! So far I have been pretty successful. Somethings I still struggle but my overall health is SO much better.
That said... I have decided that I would LOVE to treat my RA with diet and essential oils!! I am so excited!!
I spent some time doing research and talking with people WAY smarter than me and we came to the conclusion that this is the BEST option for me.

So as we get ready to dive into 2015... I am excited to see where essential oils lead my health.
I am hoping to post some of the changes I see and which oils helped.

Do you have a resolution or a way you want to better yourself in the New Year? Feel free to share!

One of those days...

You know that "I'm so totally overwhelmed I don't know where to start and I think I would rather stay on my bed and eat chocolate and get really fat and die" feeling? 

No.... Just me then? 

Hahaha I have to be honest... I don't always feel this way. 

But OH BABY when I do... It's not pretty. 

The really silly thing is I can always tell when it's coming.

 I start feeling insecure. 

I start to wonder if I will ever accomplish my goals. 

I get stressed and then I get grumpy. Grumpy at things that just shouldn't matter. 

This is when the cleaning starts. A trait I inherited from my mother... But for some reason stress pushes me into a full on cleaning frenzy! You can imagine this doesn't go over so well in a house of boys. Then I get even more discouraged because said boys CAN NOT for the life of them keep things tidy. Reality quickly sets in that they are 7 and 2 and their standard of clean is going to look quite different than mine. 

Then I take a GIANT deep breath. (You take one too! It helps!)

 I sit back and I make a to do list... I decide that I am only one person and I can only do so much. I keep a calendar and a schedule and I try my best. 

Things WILL fall through the cracks and I am certain this will cause me to panic.... But then I take another deep breath and start again.

This week has a lot in it .... So I have a to do list for each day. 

It might sound a little over the top but I tell you what.... It keeps that grumpy, frustrated side of me away. It helps me enjoy those things that would normally drive me nutty. Like for example my 2 year old deciding that he should totally unlace his shoes...right before we are walking out the door! 

I don't know why I thought by the time I got to 30 I would have things figured out.... FYI I totally Don't!

But I'm starting to enjoy the journey. 

Grown up conversation.

A friend had a meeting a few hours away and didn't want to drive by herself. So after talking the hubbykins into this great idea... We headed out. 

I dropped her off at her meeting and as I pulled away I thought.... Oh crap... What am I gonna do? Haha. I hate HATE being alone. So I ended up at Starbucks. 

I have to tell you.... My favorite part of all of this was just completing a thought. 

That sounds funny right?

But as a mommy... Sometimes it is impossible just to complete a sentence without interruption. Now these tiny people need attention and I am not down playing that. But sometimes it's nice to just soak in complete thoughts that don't include potty schedules and sippy cups. 

You may chuckle, think I'm crazy or even agree... But sometimes it's nice to talk to grown ups about anything ... I had a funny little conversation with the Starbucks guy about flour less cookies. It wasn't that interesting and he was probably just trying to sell me a cookie BUT who cares!! It was just nice. As I sit here a bride is chatting with her wedding planner ( big cheesy grin) I am just soaking in the details of her amazing wedding and beside me to lawyers are going over the list of applicants they met today and rating them. This is just plain fun for me!

Now I do understand that not everyone is this way! Haha. I love LOVE meeting new people and making new friends.  Maybe I am wrong but I think every mom at some point just needs to have adult conversation..... Maybe I am crazy? Ok we know I'm crazy.... But what do you think? 

My view as I write.