You know that "I'm so totally overwhelmed I don't know where to start and I think I would rather stay on my bed and eat chocolate and get really fat and die" feeling?
No.... Just me then?
Hahaha I have to be honest... I don't always feel this way.
But OH BABY when I do... It's not pretty.
The really silly thing is I can always tell when it's coming.
I start feeling insecure.
I start to wonder if I will ever accomplish my goals.
I get stressed and then I get grumpy. Grumpy at things that just shouldn't matter.
This is when the cleaning starts. A trait I inherited from my mother... But for some reason stress pushes me into a full on cleaning frenzy! You can imagine this doesn't go over so well in a house of boys. Then I get even more discouraged because said boys CAN NOT for the life of them keep things tidy. Reality quickly sets in that they are 7 and 2 and their standard of clean is going to look quite different than mine.
Then I take a GIANT deep breath. (You take one too! It helps!)
I sit back and I make a to do list... I decide that I am only one person and I can only do so much. I keep a calendar and a schedule and I try my best.
Things WILL fall through the cracks and I am certain this will cause me to panic.... But then I take another deep breath and start again.
This week has a lot in it .... So I have a to do list for each day.
It might sound a little over the top but I tell you what.... It keeps that grumpy, frustrated side of me away. It helps me enjoy those things that would normally drive me nutty. Like for example my 2 year old deciding that he should totally unlace his shoes...right before we are walking out the door!
I don't know why I thought by the time I got to 30 I would have things figured out.... FYI I totally Don't!
But I'm starting to enjoy the journey.
