I won't forget this day.

Well I said that our lives would never be the same after this and thats the truth.

So at 4:57 after a long day of waiting my phone finally rang.

It was our SW who I could not possibly love more. With so much grace and love ( I think she was crying too) she told us that the Birth Mom had chosen another family. The Birth Mom had really wanted a hispanic parent for her baby and thankfully BCS found a match. The adoptive Mom is also a nurse. So that is a huge blessing.

I really could not be happier that this Baby Boy has a home and a family to love him.

I am hurting and crying only for my own selfishness.

I hurt because of what I wanted for myself.

God has given me peace. I am SURE that I am not done crying but peace is in my soul.

I know that God has a plan and a special Baby just for us.

So I am just thankful that of all the almost 163 million orphan children.... tonight there is one less.