When living out loud mean leaving what you know...

This is a really tough blog to write. I haven't even started and tears are filling in my eyes.

Let's start back at the beginning.

A year and half ago we stopped sitting on the sidelines, waiting for others to make changes. We were struck with the fact that there is a need to care for orphans. We started pursuing domestic infant adoption. In that process God pressed farther. It started out as nudges but quickly became obvious to us that we have so much. So last spring we decided that we would sell our house. We decided that we were going to trust God's leading. God brought it to our attention that we are too comfortable. That we have a house and a warm place to sleep every night and that there are children without these basic staples. These children are going to sleep at night with empty bellies and empty hearts. It broke our hearts. So our plan is to sell our home and downsize. To rent an apartment because, to be frank, equity has no bearing on eternity.

At this point I was like "Ok God... You are done stretching us now right?"

He wasn't.

Late in the summer we were asked to consider a new position. Which would mean leaving our "normal", our "comfortable".

It would take this jumping out on a ledge thing to a whole new level.

After LOTS of prayer and wise counsel we have decided that this is God. He is moving us.

So last Monday evening Dave accepted the Assistant Director position at Camp BaYouCa.

BaYouCa is like a second home to me. It is where both Dave and I have made most of our life changing decisions. It's where we met :)

I couldn't be more excited!

But in the very same breath; so sad to leave what we know.

Our church has been a HUGE support system for us.

Now not much will change. We will still attend Faith. We will continue to be Youth Leaders. Things are just going to look very different.

I think what this comes down to is change.

Change is scary and unknown.

So here we are again. Out on the ledge saying "God, we are ready. We trust YOU"

To all our friends and family at Faith,

Please know that we are not done yet! We are still a part of this with you. God is getting ready to do HUGE things with you. You have been our home and a huge source of strength for us. You are our family and we love you. We don't plan on leaving all that :) Our role will look different, but our passion to see God do something in our church will not change. We love you all!

And here is my prayer.

Lord,

We love you! Lord, You asked us to trust You and hold on. You called us out to this ledge. I am not going to lie and say that it's not scary. Lord, thanks for the blessings. The first time You called us to the ledge YOU gave us Dawson. Lord, he is an amazing baby boy and everyday I fall more and more madly in love with him. Thank YOU for bringing our boy home to us.

Lord, this move is intimidating and a scary thought but we trust You. We know that You are not done yet. Lord, You know how much we love BaYouCa. You also know that BaYouCa is at a crucial point. You know all the details. Lord, we are holding on to You so tightly. You know that I am not afraid to live out loud but it's scarier when I think of our tiny boys and how much this will dramatically change their lives forever. Lord, I want our boys to know that Mommy and Daddy love YOU enough to step away from comfortable. So Lord, I am gonna close my eyes and leap. Dave and I love you so much Lord. We are gonna gather our little family up and leap into Your safe arms. Lord, we trust You.

Thank You for moving us and changing us. We are Your servants. We love You. Amen.